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The.End.The.Start.

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Again the end is here. The end I see, but the start I feel. Or maybe the start I see, but the end I feel. It's all very confusing now. End, start, start, end. Maybe it never had started so it's never the end. But I know it had a start, I know it. So for this it really is an end. An end for the record, An end to join, An end to embrace, An end to assimilate. I feel it. I see it. I do not know if I want it. But the opposite is no longer my will.

Not.A.Gender.

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It really is hard to be a woman, it is. And for what's most hard it is the fact that everyone knows, like the sky is blue and the sun is yellow. It is assumed that for women life is hard. And for making it better we have a sensual appearance, because it is the minimum we are doing here, it is being attractive for the view. We do not have to know about the subjects, we are not expected to even care about the subjects or being aware that there is a world out there, besides our pretty little pink bedroom.  But we have to assimilate that we are women and for that meaning we are just like that. This is my first text about being a woman and you know why? Because for me that's not the first thing I know I am, I am not a woman as a topic of being a woman, I am human and expect to be treated simply as it.  But since I am always remembered that yes I am a woman, yes it is a men's world, yes we women always have been treated as a background. Being woman only seemed to be

Counting.My.Demons.

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Demons, demons, they are tones, hundreds, thousands, millions of them inside each one of us. I know you may now look good and well, but there are those times when you just see everything going in front of you like a snowball, and it seems it is not going to stop never, or sometimes you just feel alone in a desert, and there is nowhere to go. How can we find a way? The demons can appear, it is part of life, it is part of the routine. And you feel the challenge, and you feel the rush and the pain, you feel yourself vanishing form inside out. And that is the moment you decide, either you go, or you give up. Do not forget. The moment before you break is crucial, because it is when you can win yourself back.